So lately I have felt like there has been so much drama on my shoulders...between the issues my husband and I are working out and trying to help friends...Some days I want to just throw my hands up and give up...But Im a fighter and know this too shall pass. Recently I have been faced with a decision of morals (and unfortunately this is the 2nd year in a row someone around me has done this) my dearest and closest friend for a long time is in a situation that I'd rather not discuss but its a decision shes making that I morally and emotionally fully disagree with. What do you do when your stuck in a place where you love this friend more like sister to death and would do anything for her in your power yet shes about to make a life altering choice you cant support? I want to support her because she isnt telling anyone except me and I know its a tough decision but it tears me up inside and out to even fathom what she is doing...
Where do you draw the line and how? How if its something you do not support...support them? I hate this internal struggle. I have learned the last 2 years to keep a lot of my opinions to myself...I dont want to hurt people and I dont want to be punsihed for honesty...which is why I havent pushed my solutions on her...but is that wrong? I am condoning what she is doing by not saying anything? All these things running thru my mind and I just try to pray and pray about it...hopefully some clarity and answers will come to me soon...I wish I could crawl into a hole and disappear with my husband and daughter for awhile...I feel like if we could be 100% disconnected for awhile maybe that would make things in life more clear and show us a path we need to follow...but that is most definitely unrealistic...so to blogging talking and venting about it I go...
Well still trying to figure out what this blog will be...I feel if I say its going to be one thing I wont follow thru so for now it is what it is...
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